Thursday, August 6, 2009


Okay I am a little stressed right now because it is finally going to happen on Monday. I am going to be dropping Jacob off for his first day of school. I am so happy to be going back to work, but also have the stomach pains about leaving my child all day with someone else. I know they are going to be great with him and he will do really well. I am just so use to being around him all day long, just the two of us. No matter what kind of day we would both have and how often I thought to myself I just want to back to work and be a human again and not have to listen to you whine and cry. I would always sneek into his room and cradle him at night. I really do love him so much and I am going to miss all the time we have been able to spend with each other. He is now 11 months old and I wouldn't change a thing about him. It has been a hard 11 months, but I wouldn't have traded it for anything. It was actually a blessing in disguise that I got laid-off at the time and looking back on it, it was the best thing that could have happened. Now I just need to get the courage to actually drop him on Monday morning and not pack him away in my work gear to bring him to the office. I don't think my new boss would appreciate me bringing my child to work on my first day. Or maybe she would? Just look at that face, how dare I go back to work?


Jill said...

You will do great, but I know it will be tough!

rita porter said...

This will be a good, if hard at first, transition phase for the whole little Porter family. You'll have to see it to believe it, I know, but soon you'll all be thriving. Love, Nana

Raegan & Caleb said...

Hang in there.